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Nt who reaches out to Vanessa and now Vanessa suddenly finds herself facing an impossible choice remain silent firm in the belief that her teenage self willingly engaged in this relationship or redefine herself and the events of her past But how can Vanessa reject her first love the man who fundamentally transformed her and has been a persistent presence in her life Is it possible that the man she loved as a teenager and who professed to worship only her may be far different from what she has always believedAlternating between Vanessa’s present and her past My Typically when I finish a book the best case scenario is that I jot down a few notes for the future me who is desperately trying to alchemize fading away thoughts into a review These helpful and compelling insights include phrases like beautiful writing I don t like the characters At first this was hard to get into but then I enjoyed it You know The kind of bring the house down literary criticisms that have the world s finest book reviews and newspaper Sunday sections knocking at my doorBut when I finished this one I so badly needed some kind of outlet or catharsis that I sat down and typed and typed and typed I free wrote pages of thoughts and feelings until I felt a little betterMost of that is somehow even less usable than I Liked This but still Lately I ve been shooting for the goal of finishing a book per day whenever possible which is all well and good until I m suddenly trying to force myself through an incredibly dark and traumatic book in a matter of hours At one point I caught myself scoffing at this story I played the Vanessa to Vanessa the character who doesn t believe not because of some secret misogyny or doubt or cruelty but because of the story she d told herself the narrative she d created in order to better survive No man is this evil No person is this manipulative I told myself Who thinks of all these things Later in the story Vanessa meets a professor who is kind He cares because she is so smart so funny such a good student He s a Good Guy And so what if his wife doesn t come up in conversation when everything else doesI have known so many men like this that it s crushing I have had so many professors who made me feel special and smart until I realized the inappropriate tinges to their words the idea that it s not really normal to get late night emails from men who are fifteen years older and have power over you When someone tells you everything about themselves and their life is desperate to unleash the small events of their days the fact that their wife didn t come up in conversation is deliberate a choiceAnd the fact of the matter is that I know there are men who are that manipulative I don t want to believe it I want to banish that type of person as a fairytale villain because it is so much easier to live if I can believe myself an eual participant in everything that has ever happened to me And if that comes with a little self hatred so whatThis is a true story And it hurts to read And it hurts to recognize yourself in the pages even in the smallest ways For a very long time I have excused the men in my life for the ways they have hurt me even if those moments lurk behind my eyelids in the minutes I spend trying to fall asleep for years after they happened And I wish I could say no but that would be absurd That takes a journey and this book didn t take me all the way through it but maybe it helped me take the first stepThis is the story of Lolita from her perspective This is the story of Lolita returning to Dolores Haze She shouldn t feel like she has to forgive herself but she does and she doesReading Lolita was traumatic and awful for me an experience that up until now I d have undone if I could but this book helped and healed and made it worthwhile I do not recommend this book unilaterally I recommend this only to anyone who can handle it who needs it who wants it I for example should not have read this at an unsteady time in my life and I d warn anyone considering doing so away from thatBut I do recommend it That s my bottom lineAlso I just want to say Anyone who has the guts to accuse someone of plagiarism when they haven t even read the book they re assuming was stolen from themmad props I guess took some time to think about this rating and know it s at least 45 or 5 so review and final rating to come but here are all these stars for now Reading this I had to take breaks stop to watch silly videos and look at memes and play Animal Crossing between pages in an attempt to prevent the words from traveling too deep The second I finished I burst into sudden and unexpected tears gone in thirty seconds but still there still felt and surprisingI m not sure yet if I m glad I read it review rating to come me anticipated this book for monthsalso me is now scared to read it Demons, Yes--But Thank God for Good Angels past But how can Vanessa reject her first love the man who fundamentally transformed her and has been a The Pride 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in everything that has ever happened to me And if that comes with a little self hatred so whatThis is a true story And it hurts to read And it hurts to recognize yourself in the Stone Circles of Britain pages even in the smallest ways For a very long time I have excused the men in my life for the ways they have hurt me even if those moments lurk behind my eyelids in the minutes I spend trying to fall asleep for years after they happened And I wish I could say no but that would be absurd That takes a journey and this book didn t take me all the way through it but maybe it helped me take the first stepThis is the story of Lolita from her Blue leader perspective This is the story of Lolita returning to Dolores Haze She shouldn t feel like she has to forgive herself but she does and she doesReading Lolita was traumatic and awful for me an experience that up until now I d have undone if I could but this book helped and healed and made it worthwhile I do not recommend this book unilaterally I recommend this only to anyone who can handle it who needs it who wants it I for example should not have read this at an unsteady time in my life and I d warn anyone considering doing so away from thatBut I do recommend it That s my bottom lineAlso I just want to say Anyone who has the guts to accuse someone of The Queen Con (The Golden Arrow plagiarism when they haven t even read the book they re assuming was stolen from themmad The Rite props I guess took some time to think about this rating and know it s at least 45 or 5 so review and final rating to come but here are all these stars for now Reading this I had to take breaks stop to watch silly videos and look at memes and Black Popular Culture play Animal Crossing between HEG (HISTORIA DE ESPAÑA) BACHARELATO AULA 3D: Historia De España. 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Exploring the psychological dynamics of the relationship between a precocious yet naïve teenage girl and her magnetic and manipulative teacher a brilliant all consuming read that marks the explosive debut of an extraordinary new writer2000 Bright ambitious and yearning for adulthood fifteen year old Vanessa Wye becomes entangled in an affair with Jacob Strane her magnetic and guileful forty two year old English teacher2017 Amid the rising wave of allegations against powerful men a reckoning is coming due Strane has been accused of sexual abuse by a former stude Truth I started this book so many times and after few pages I felt suffocated my stomach churned sharp pain twisted my heart and I dropped it This happened several times and I tried to gather my wits wear my big girl s pants and breathe in breathe out several times deeply And I started again This is most disturbing painful heart bleeding psychologically consuming complex soul crushing life changing story I ve been lately read It s harsh raw realistic provocative brave dark bleak terrifying The words like glass pieces cut through your mind and you don t drop tears for Vanessa you just bleed out as like she does mentally throughout her journeyWhen she was only 15 Vanessa meets Jacob Strane 44 years teacher at Browick School in Norumbega Maine in 2000 Jacob was cunny man who knew exactly what he was getting himself into Vanessa felt special uniue free and braver with him But that was not true and she knows it She was a prey manipulated deceived raped brainwashed Jacob was evil smart insisting they were soul mates feeding her with literature masterpieces from Sylvia Plath to Emily Dickinson Edna St Vincent He was vile he was the predator and there was nothing about love passion about his motives He just took took and took till there was nothing left from Vanessa s pure soul I know most of the teenagers aware about their sexual awakenings in younger ages They may reach anything even the graphic and erotic images from websites reading articles experiencing so many things They might be wiser from our younger versions thanks to website online and school educations and the parents open minded friendly approaches and communicative ways But that doesn t mean they re not innocent na ve and they are vulnerable They can still easily hurt And the emotional sharp scars they carry always stay in their hearts throughout their life journey From moving back and forth between 2000 and 2017 for understanding what kind of tremendous damage he created at Vanessa s bleeding soul crying heart and unbalanced mental moods She told us her heartbreaking dark journey from a dark twisted tarnished exhausted mental state At 2017 Vanessa stuck with her dead end day time job getting therapy sessions for the grief after she lost her father She meets Jacob at a coffee shop and she realizes she feels the same about him after 17 years But Jacob has secret agenda to engage with her There is a misconduct case against him about sexual abusing his former student All the details posted on Facebook Did he do that But Vanessa thought she was special She was the only one What a minute Was she also abused Did he use her for his own sexual benefits Wasn t their relationship special or did they ever have a real relationship What if you know anything about love consists of twisted abuse manipulation and dirty lies How Vanessa move on her life How can she form a real normal bounding with other human being How can she learn to trust any other people when the person she most loved is a shameless liar I couldn t stop breathing even though the words cut my heart into tiny pieces and crushes my mind with sledgehammer I hurt I ached I cursed I punched the wall I screamed But sigh sigh sigh I love this book I truly love it It s than five starred reading but it s not for everyone It will take at least one week to gather myself I m overwhelmed I m so tired This book shattered me I think I stop everything resume sitting on the floor giving blank looks for days Oh Kate Elizabeth Russell you ruined me for other booksbloginstagramfacebooktwitter

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Dark Vanessa juxtaposes memory and trauma with the breathless excitement of a teenage girl discovering the power her own body can wield Thought provoking and impossible to put down this is a masterful portrayal of troubled adolescence and its repercussions that raises vital uestions about agency consent complicity and victimhood Written with the haunting intimacy of The Girls and the creeping intensity of Room My Dark Vanessa is an era defining novel that brilliantly captures and reflects the shifting cultural s transforming our relationships and society itself 15 starsI wish I could somehow unread this disturbing book My curiosity got the best of me after reading the countless 5 star reviews It wasn t a storyline that appealed to me but I had to see what all the buzz was about After reading halfway through and feeling like I was missing something I continued on as my curiosity kept pushing me further and had me thinking this must get better Unfortunately it didn t get better after halfway in fact it got worse I finished this novel feeling nauseated upset and frustrated Not because I was so impacted by the storyline and characters I felt nauseated upset and frustrated because I don t understand a reason for a book like this to be written What is the author trying to convey I am definitely missing something here The ending was a let down There was no sense of hope or purpose There was nothing to feel good about For me the story lacked sensitivity and focused on shock factor The timeline jumped around and lacked flow As much as the plot disgusted me I never felt truly connected to the characters or storyline I felt upset about the situation but no emotional connection to the characters or investment in the storyline I don t like writing negative reviews I like to focus on the positives but there simply are no positives for me on this one I didn t enjoy the way this story was presented Please be warned that this is a highly uncomfortable novel that you MUST be prepared forThis was a Traveling Sister read with Brenda and Mary Beth We sit at the outlier table together as all three of us felt similar Thank you to Edelweiss for the review copy


10 thoughts on “My Dark Vanessa

  1. says:

    How do you best write about a fictional love affair between a teacher and a 15 year old student that is actually a predatory relationship There are no easy answers to that uestion but that is what happens in My Dark Vanessa which alternates between 2000 and 2017 as we see how Vanessa Wye is groomed and then raped by her teacher Jacob Strane We see the repercussions she must deal with as an adult who does not

  2. says:

    I think we're very similar Nessa he whispers From the way you write I can tell you're a dark romantic like me You like dark things 3 12 stars I really really want to give this book a higher rating but I cannot justify it when it is almost twi

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    Truth I started this book so many times and after few pages I felt suffocated my stomach churned sharp pain twisted my heart and I dro

  4. says:

    Tragic dark repulsive and infuriating this book dives deep into the complexities of abusive relationships grooming and trauma There are complicated layers that I think the author does well in putting together the timely pop culture references to show how pervasive the culture of sexualizing young girls is; the side characters tha

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    Come and be worshipped come and be caressed My Dark Vanessa crimson barred my blest My Admirable butterfly Explain How could you in the gloam of Lilac Lane Have let uncouth hysterical John ShadeBlubber your face a

  6. says:

    Typically when I finish a book the best case scenario is that I jot down a few notes for the future me who is desperately t

  7. says:

    Thank you William Morrow for a finished copy This was one of the hardest books I've ever read I hope to be able to write a full review soon but I will say that the ending might feel really heartbreaking and disappointing but that is because we live in a heartbreaking and disappointing reality There is no wrong way to heal and live through ho

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    My Dark Vanessa by Kate Elizabeth Russell is a 2020 William Morrow publication A powerful novel and one of the most disturbing books I’ve ever read Before reading this review be aware I made up my mind about any gray areas concerning consent this novel addresses For me there are no gray areas Fifteen year old girl forty two year old man and a figure of authority Please This is a strongly worded review and

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    15 starsI wish I could somehow unread this disturbing book My curiosity got the best of me after reading the countless 5 star reviews It wasn’t a storyline that appealed to me but I had to see what all the buzz was about After readi

  10. says:

    Year 2000Vanessa 15 years of age grew up in a uiet small town in Maine on Whalesback Lake She attended Browick

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